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Thursday, August 29th, 2002

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8:43a
Hmmm
So now the girls are back in school and I have mornings to myself again. This is *very* nice.

The weekend was wonderful. The tie dye party was great fun, although my shirt is not nearly as intersting as is Q.'s, but, hey....that happens. We managed to spend a lot of time together this weekend < sex 5 times !!!! Really *Goooood* sex, too!>, and through Tuesday. We went camping in NY with the kids, and slept under the stars. Great fun. Good, good food, too. I managed to pull off a wonderful pancake breakfast with sauteed fruits atop. Yum....

Pan and Skydancer are at dance camp this week. I miss them. We had a wonderful talk before they left, though, and things are feeling more cohesive between us all. Pan and I got a chance to talk and hug a bit at the party, and Skydancer and I giggled a lot, as well. I hope that they can manage this Monogamy Thing. I want to support them as best I can. This means being ever aware of what is going on inside myself and what is coming from them. Clues are hard to pinpoint sometimes, and I do find myself reading mixed messages, especially with regard to Skydancer really trusting that we will all keep within the boundaries they have set.

Deep Well and I continue to write daily, and are learning a great deal about one another. I find myself wading in warm pools of feeling about him, and about our growing friendship, and I wonder what forms will arise from this connection I feel. Q. is feeling much, much safer about my connection to Deep Well, and is really okay with whatever forms arise as they come along in an organic manner.

I am feeling reserved, still, as the structure of being attracted to someone who is on the cusp of leaving a relationship replays itself again. With Pan, things are rebuilding, slowly. And I am still not sure about what to do with any sexual attractions that arise towards him...where to put them. Let them breathe, acknowledge them, then let the fade, I suppose. I cannot say that I am not feeling some...some what? anxiety? about Deep Well, in that I have fears of a repeat performance of the Pan incident, should I find myself able to express myself sexually with him at some point. I suppose that is one of the reasons I have such a tight lid on that right now.

Another man comes into my life who is wonderful (and yummy) and balancing on the edge of ending a love with someone else. There is some talk of negotiation/reconcilliation, which is *wonderful* for them, if they can really find a path back to one another. I will wait and see what my Special Friend finds on that path. I can be content to hold his hand and turn over interesting rocks along the way. Even though, at times, I would rather, push him into the bushes, pounce on him, giggling, and kiss him madly, then run my fingers through his hair and gaze into his eyes........
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So now the girls are back in school and I have mornings to myself again. This is *very* nice.

The weekend was wonderful. The tie dye party was great fun, although my shirt is not nearly as intersting as is Q.'s, but, hey....that happens. We managed to spend a lot of time together this weekend < sex 5 times !!!! Really *Goooood* sex, too!>, and through Tuesday. We went camping in NY with the kids, and slept under the stars. Great fun. Good, good food, too. I managed to pull off a wonderful pancake breakfast with sauteed fruits atop. Yum....

Pan and Skydancer are at dance camp this week. I miss them. We had a wonderful talk before they left, though, and things are feeling more cohesive between us all. Pan and I got a chance to talk and hug a bit at the party, and Skydancer and I giggled a lot, as well. I hope that they can manage this Monogamy Thing. I want to support them as best I can. This means being ever aware of what is going on inside myself and what is coming from them. Clues are hard to pinpoint sometimes, and I do find myself reading mixed messages, especially with regard to Skydancer really trusting that we will all keep within the boundaries they have set.

Deep Well and I continue to write daily, and are learning a great deal about one another. I find myself wading in warm pools of feeling about him, and about our growing friendship, and I wonder what forms will arise from this connection I feel. Q. is feeling much, much safer about my connection to Deep Well, and is really okay with whatever forms arise as they come along in an organic manner.

I am feeling reserved, still, as the structure of being attracted to someone who is on the cusp of leaving a relationship replays itself again. With Pan, things are rebuilding, slowly. And I am still not sure about what to do with any sexual attractions that arise towards him...where to put them. Let them breathe, acknowledge them, then let the fade, I suppose. I cannot say that I am not feeling some...some what? anxiety? about Deep Well, in that I have fears of a repeat performance of the Pan incident, should I find myself able to express myself sexually with him at some point. I suppose that is one of the reasons I have such a tight lid on that right now.

Another man comes into my life who is wonderful (and yummy) and balancing on the edge of ending a love with someone else. There is some talk of negotiation/reconcilliation, which is *wonderful* for them, if they can really find a path back to one another. I will wait and see what my Special Friend finds on that path. I can be content to hold his hand and turn over interesting rocks along the way. Even though, at times, I would rather, push him into the bushes, pounce on him, giggling, and kiss him madly, then run my fingers through his hair and gaze into his eyes........<waves at you, DW>


Current Mood: artistic
10:43a
Huh.
Well, this is nifty.  I've been signed into this community for ages, but I don't think I remembered it was here until today.

So what's this community about?  A subset of polyamory or compersion, or others?  A sort of six degrees for polyfolk in Boston?  Sasquatchi?

Anywai.  Hija!

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